I thought he was thunder,
Mighty and mean –
Where is he? I wondered.
He’s there, but unseen?

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His presence among us?
No, that can’t be.
Then what’s all the fuss –
He sets people free?
Many symbols and signs,
Ancient stories you hear…
Water to wine?
It just wasn’t clear.
Incense and stained glass
Alters of gold
Attending a Mass
‘Believe!’ we were told.
So I did, and I prayed
As older I grew,
But my faith, it was frayed,
Only I never knew.
I believed He was ‘there’
And I heard of the cross,
But find him – just where?
I was still at a loss.
I tried to be good,
And thought I was kind.
For virtue I stood
But felt God was blind
to me and my son.
Why had he no voice?
Just do this, don’t shun!
Only then I’d rejoice.

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Wasn’t ask & receive
The way that it works?
Was I deceived?
Don’t Christians have perks?
I went through the motions
Of someone with faith,
Strung together my notions
With used-up old tape.
Thinking praying meant ‘done,’
(for things that we need)
A voice for my son!
I’d cry and I’d plead.
Some people seemed blessed,
While others – not so.
My soul was distressed,
Where was our rainbow?
Like fog hanging low,
Doubt muddied my mind.
I wanted to know
Yet viewed God unkind.
Life felt very blue
And time swaggered on.
From my faith I withdrew
That connection long gone.
Folded hands on a pew,
Eyes closed and knees bent,
Say the words, there’s your cue…
Don’t forget to repent.
Repent? I’m a sinner?
What did I do wrong?
A believer-beginner,
Might not I belong?
So that’s what this meant?
You are bad, that’s the cause?
All the time that I spent…
Following ‘laws.’
An invisible God
Who cared none for me.
I was no longer awed
From him I’d flee.
There were lies in my heart
Bitter seeds that had grown.
Can you get a fresh start?
Could new seeds be sown?

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Through my anger and doubt
My heart still would whisper
Turn to Him and break out…
I felt God say I miss her.
A friend wrote a note:
God’s okay with anger.
But could I devote
My heart to a stranger?
Invisible, yes,
But His spirit so near.
Just had to confess
I needed Him here.
I poured out my feelings
And all we’d been through,
All the autism dealings…
Then came a breakthrough.
Light broke through the fog
And my soul it felt warm,
Jesus reached me with love,
Without judgment nor scorn.
A bond once denied
Cause I misunderstood
For whom Jesus had died.
God then said It’s all good.
I dwelled on a truth
Presented to me:
The road won’t be smooth
By my side He will be.
All things He does
Have a purpose and plan
And when it gets rough
He’ll be holding my hand.
Yearning for Jesus
In a whole different light,
I finally got “frees us”
I could set things aright.
I wanted fresh seeds
Planted within.
Can I cut all the weeds?
Have a friendship begin?

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A demand there was not
Just a beautiful nudge
He said what He sought
Was my heart, without grudge
My heart heard the words
Come back…you will see
It may sound absurd –
I was drenched in pure glee.
The anger had melted
And right in its place
No doubt I had felt it –
Unconditional grace.

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Now in me a flower
I share with my God.
Jesus’ name is pure power,
Everyday I am awed
At what He can do
And how he forgives!
He has made me brand new
And within Him I’ll live.
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An emotional journey, beautifully described, that obviously led to the right destination.
Beautiful poem and a beautiful faith, one well worth celebrating!
Keep living your beautiful, Spirit-filled life!
All I can say is that this poem is powerful, inspirational and beautiful and so well written !💜
Beautiful
Poem and well written as usual.
So happy you reached out to the Lord.
Beautiful Keri💕😇🙏